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Update 2: Well, here's some good news. My blood tests all came out normal and I don't have ovarian cancer. Hurrah! The Doc was looking for a specific protein called the CA-125, which is indicative of ovarian cancer, something that was necessary to rule out. So yah, I'm happy! The downside, I still have grossly swollen ovaries and a crap-ton of pain, so I hope the MRI I had this morning will be able to reveal what kind of cysts I'm dealing with. Depending on the kind of cysts I have and how well I respond to the medications, I may or may not be able to keep my ovaries. However, given my age, removal is a last resort since I kind of need those hormones for a lot of good reasons! With that said, since I don't want children and fertility isn't a concern, if removing the ovaries ultimately relieves future pain and suffering, I may decide to take them out and just be on supplements for however long is necessary. I really don't want to live like this for the next 20 years before menopause because the biggest concern is quality of life and right now, I don't have it.
On a side note, I think my only remaining concern is that my last 3 pap smears have been abnormal and I apparently test as running a higher risk of developing cervical cancer than most women, so I need annual screenings to keep an eye on it. So, I'm still paranoid about cervical cancer so the MRI will also help put me at ease by seeing anything that doesn't look normal.
I'll have the results of my MRI by Monday next week. Till then, I wait and worry.
UPDATE : Results of my Appointment: I may not have known what it is that's causing my pain, but I know my body well enough to sense when something's not normal. SO yeah, I'm not imagining things and the pain is because not one, but both my ovaries have cysts, the largest on the right at over 2". I'll spare you the details, but the pelvic exam just about had me flying off the table. Ever hurt so much you want to punch something? Yeah, I was there, but I didn't punch anything, but you can bet I fucking wanted to. I just cried and then of course I've been an emotional wreck since.... I'm just glad I had my fiance, , with me to hold me through it and all the tears because I could not have gone through that alone. I <3 you.
After the last two ultrasounds have been unable to properly visualize one or both of my ovaries, an urgent MRI has been ordered to take a more decent picture of my pelvis to see everything in greater detail. Last thing we need is something else hidden to sneak up on me unexpectedly and I really don't want to risk anything else that would, I dunno, cause a cyst to rupture and cause me to bleed out or something just as equally horrible because trust me, I'm anxiety girl and I WILL leap to the worse conclusion in a single bound.
I'm just grateful I have an awesome Doctor, so I'm all for the MRI if he says it'll help in diagnosing the issue. I'm just concerned that with my hip/back pain, how in the hell will I be able to lay still on a flat and uncomfortable table inside a giant tube full of magnets without wanting to scream in agony? I've done it before, so I know It'll be difficult, but I'll just have to bite my lip and manage because constant pain has been my new normal for the past year. I can DO this- I've just got to keep moving forward no matter how difficult it gets.
I'm going on a 3 month trial of medications to hopefully reduce my symptoms and reduce the size of the cysts. If the meds haven't reduced my symptoms significantly, then I will need to have another surgery. So, until then, I can only hope that I have SOME relief because between my bilateral acetabular hip dysplasia (and all the other associated syndromes), right hip labrum tear, and now THIS, my quality of life is in the toilet. I'm at the end of my rope in terms of pain tolerance and wish to God it would just- END.
I have an appointment in a few hours to see my Gynecological Specialist/Surgeon to address the return of my Endometriosis and my faulty cystic ovaries. *sigh*
...Time to draw up a battle plan and I'm as nervous as a long-tailed cat in a room full of rocking chairs....
Wish me luck.
I'm gonna need it.